I've been working even more than the usual 80 a week, giving me little time and energy for anything else. But something has come up i have to vent about.
My hormone therapy treatment began under less than ideal circumstances. After a self-initiated follow up to check my testosterone and estrogen progress, i felt that the results might be less than they should be after three months of treatment. Not that i could find any real scientific information on the matter...it was more of an intuitive guess based on vague statements made by other T online.
No information was forthcoming from Nurse Ratchet and her vanguard of thinly-veiled haters. The women's clinic which Dr. Sensitive resided went out of their way to make me feel unwelcome, mess up my test orders twice, then play a phone-game of 'dodge the T' and make me wait three weeks longer than i was supposed to. For an in-house test.
i was only allowed to communicate with Dr. Sensitive through a thick wall of disdainful staff, so i pointed out my dosages, explained the typical amount, and asked if it would be possible to increase my prescription to 50% of the maximum. The mysterious hand-written response increased it to 100% (four times my current amount on both drugs), and a note basically letting me know there was no need to come back.
The first three months were side-effect free for me. Since the dosage increase, i have been suffering cripplingly dizzy spells that strike at random. The last was so severe that i nearly fell off a kitchen stool. My stomach hurts periodically now. A call to the local clinic yielded the advice to 'stop taking optional, unnecessary drugs'. My appointment for the endocrinologist that i can't afford is still eight weeks away.
Despite this blog (the creation of which has astounded several people who know me), i am a pretty private person. So it was as a last resort that i started trying to find help from other T online.
And without fail, you have all let me down and slam the door shut in my face.
i'm not including those who simply don't have any more knowledge than i do. If ignorance were a crime i'd be doing life. i'm talking about those of you that made it clear to me in your posts, before i dared ask, that it sickened you how losers like me have the audacity to inquire about something as personal as your script, and what type of success you've had with it.
Maybe people like me were mislead about how open you might be about it, when in other areas on your blog, you talk about it like it were nothing more than a clothing designer you happened to use. It's bizarre.
"I like Vera Wang."
"Hey, so do i. But some things i've bought seemed to lose their stitching like crazy after just a few washes. Do you have that problem?"
"How dare you ask something personal like that. Go figure out the problem yourself."
I'm being a little flip of course. But others with medicated conditions support each other with a flow of information on results. Apparently not so with our 'community'. What let me down the most were the most popular blogs we as a group have to offer. Those i have read with loyalty. As you are the most visible and popular among us, i would have thought that you would be the most helpful. Apparently the little time and patience you have can only be spent manipulating clever word-play or preening for praise in front of a camera.
All hail the power of the 'sisterhood'.
